First some updates on my current life; today is December 19th, which means I leave for the beautiful state of Alaska in just four days time :D the time is now 2:47am, probably right around the same time I'll have to leave my house for the airport on Thursday morning. I'm very much so looking forward to getting away from all things involved in this town for a good week and a half. I need time away from people, work and school. So on the topic of school.. I'm currently taking five classes. Contemporary problems; college composition; band/jazz band; english; and lastly economics, online. Yeah, because I have so much free time in between work, school, chores, and being with friends that I can do work for that class ALL the time. Not. Sometimes I wish life would just slow down a bit. I still have yet to finish my college essay, which my parents ask me about at least twice a day. It's not that I don't have enough to write about, it's just how to say it, and whether it'll turn out sounding good. My parents are so worried I won't get into the right college because my essay sucks. That's also apparently the reason why I didn't get into the national honor society.. yeah, okay mom and dad. But amongst all the stress and such, I'm loving my life at the moment, being surrounded by such wonderful people. I couldn't have asked for better friends, really. It's taken a lot of fights and a lot of drama, but I'm glad I've finally been able to find my true friends. I have a wonderful boyfriend whom I adore. He gives me the want to look forward to the next day, even if I know I won't see him. My heart smiles every time I see his face, or hear his name. Yeah, life is good. We had a concert, on Thursday night, and I guess it wasn't as awful as I thought it was going to be.. no one came for me though. Not my family, or anyone. My best friend's family was there, and that was the closest support group I had. I never even got an explanation as to why my family wouldn't come, just that dad had to go somewhere, and mom had stuff to do at home. Do they not realize how important that was to me? I guess not. But it's awful, if I try to say anything about it. Like 'oh, I wish you had been there,' or 'I missed having you guys there.' Because then I'm apparently just trying to make them feel bad, and I can't do that. So who cares if music is important to me?Obviously not them. It's my outlet though, yah know? It's not something I plan to pursue a career in, it's just something I have to have in my life. Who knew that was such a hard concept to grasp. I guess if it were figuring out math equations, or being the basketball star, it'd be a different story. I just want someone to understand. So enough of that ranting.. Work is getting to be something I don't like doing, but yet I still love it because it gives me the excuse to get out of the house, and not all of the people I work with are half bad. I'm hoping after Christmas break, and I have all of my college applications sent, and my work done, I can finally have some 'me' time. I just can't wait 'til the day I find out where I've been accepted, and what i'm going to do with the next four years of my life.
Well that's pretty much all I have to say for now. I'll be posting again soon, probably to talk more about my wintery visit in four days :D
Adios!
